January 2010
29 posts
Goodbye,So long, Farwell, Adieu; Last blog in 5...
This is gonna be my last blog on tumblr and im considering this my goodbye blog; If your not mentioned here sowwwy :( but if you have meet me in my life you already have made an impact..
To My Family: Im gonna miss you guys so much, its hard to explain how you guys are my everything + 1 ! I love you guys with my all. This is gonna be so hard cause im so used to be with you guys, To my mom ,...
This is for you..
I dreamed I was missing You were so scared But no one would listen Cause no one else cared After my dreaming I woke with this fear What am I leaving When I’m done here So if you’re asking me I want you to know [Chorus] When my time comes Forget the wrong that I’ve done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed And don’t resent me And when you’re feeling empty...
I feel better;
:D
5 days
Wasteing time is criminal.. but here i am , wasteing every single day.. I just wanna crawl into a hole and hide forever…..
“ Thanks for not being there for me when i needed you the most”
– =(
Irratated
Hella irratated. Fuck, i seriousley hate this shit. But no one gets it.. No one can and so i try to destract my problems but helping someone else with theres but they cant even give me that.. so now im stuck here haveing to focus on mine.. fuck. i wish i could sleep tonight.. i wish i could, but i feel it . All of this is just gonna take over my mind, it was doing so last night but i wasnt alone...
I wish I were more appealing.
honeyluv:
Half the shit that comes out of my mouth is word vomit. And while I can hold a conversation, I can’t hold a conversation about myself. People go on blind dates all the time, and when their date asks them to talk about themselves, they can go on and on and on. I can’t. I know me. I know myself inside and out. I could say a lot about me….except it’s all mundane crap, because my life is...
Sisters
Just made me a sandwhich YUMMMMM NOM NOM NOM
<3 <3 <3
“Sometimes Lonely Souls Find Company in Lonely Hearts”
I feel great
Finally feel like i actually had a good night sleep. At first i couldnt sleep and it was driving me insane but thank you The Fray and your melodic tunes. Woke up feeling good, and now i feel like i can get everything i need to get done ! Fuck Hello Tuesday morning :D Downside is im fucking broke untill this check comes in my mail ! That means my phones off too.. But other wise shit...
This is what makes me come back ..
Dear analisa :D
I was going to write a letter to you but I didn’t have much time. I just wanted to tell you that I won’t be able to make it to your going away party thing that is held on Saturday. I am leaving Saturday morning at 5AM to go back to Irvine. And I hope everything will turn out well. Oh, I just wanted to say that I’m proud to know one more is doing the Army. I am...
Too make matters worse
I just fucking checked my cell phone minutes and im officially out, my new cycle dosent fucking start till next week. -_____-
Ugh
This is the worst new years of my life. Like no joke. FUCK i hate this shit. Wake up after not sleeping till 7am cause im freaking out about leaving. Was haveing and okay day till my moms back started hurting , i tried hitting her back and massageing it. But i guess it was something more serious. I went out with my friend for a bit and it was going all good but then they call me and say she went...
December 2009
82 posts
“Are you crazy ! Of course im scared but not of the usual stuff, more of my...”
– Everyones been asking me if im scared and honest to god yes i am. The drilling dosent scare me, the people yelling at you dosent either. I just feel presured to be the best and if i cant do that i think im just gonna be broken….. Everyones asking so i guess this is what i mean when i say...
WatchThis is gonna be my life for the next 2 months of basic.
“Had lunch with Kevin, Ana, Andy, & Sang. Haven’t been with Regs in a...”
– @Trinhngo; OMG STUFF LIKE THIS MAKES ME WANT TO STAY =(
Day 13 and 12th
13th: So yesterday woke up to chris asking me if i went to go see harry potter already ! That boy and his sleep talk ; the last few days hes been rambleing every night and its so funny and intresting cause they say those words told when asleep are truth ! LOL anyways woke up chilled went to the mall. Just finished Xmas shoppping ! YEA i know xmas is over but there are some...
“Who the fuck wants to be happy for the rest of their life? I want to feel it...”
– So rip me open, break my heart, bite me, piss me off, make me cry, make me feel pleasure i wanna feel life
“Everybody who doubted me is asking for forgivness, if you havent been apart of...”
“I think the most sexiest thing is a quirky humor and intelligence; you can have...”
– Yup what can i say i love immature,nerdy, kid at heart boys ;D SIGH where are they now a days :L why am i stuck with the douchy guys !
Sleep
Is werid for me now. I never can sleep now a days. My minds awake like thinking, feeling, expiernceing everything during the late hours. I see the late hours as my alone time. Time where i feel most content with myself. But my body is tired as fuck. Its being now more obvious physically. I have baggs under my eyes,im breaking out and my body is just weak. Seeing the two are completly different i...
Day 15 & 14
Sunday day 15: was my sisters bday :D Yay happy 4th bday too you little one ! I woke up , got my cat ready to give up. So heartbroken ! It was so hard for me to this. But i needed to find her a home that would love and take care of her. =/ the sad part of my day ! Went to theresa house. Had a dinner/cake ! Sigh they were all telling me to get ready for the army and im not gonna...
“Money over mind has been my motto all my life but maybe its time my heart takes...”
– So true..
“Some people pass through your life and you never think about them again. Some...”
– The Wonder Years (via littlemiss) (via junecar)