Sometimes i wonder if people were meant to be family cause the love they have for one and another is at the same leavel. Well thats how it is for me and this guy. From the very first day i met him, its been that way. I love him. I love him so much, but its an unusaul love. I love him for everything he is and an this unconditional love hes given me . I think that because its getting closer till i leave and god im gonna miss him and my other friends, but im scared that this is gonna be the best that our friendship ever gets. When i leave im scared hes gonna forget about me and move on. I wish i didnt know his personaillty or else i wouldnt be freaking out on him. I felt sad last night cause i felt that my depression has made me take him down with me. Sigh, sometimes i wish i wouldnt leave but i gotta do this and it kills me to leave him.. People just dont understand, they always want to put a lable on us. “Ana likes chris, chris likes ana, there togther” Its so stupid, but its okay i can give a shit what the world says. All i know is i love this guy as much as i love my family. Im gonna miss you so much kid ! We’ve been talking about this for some days now and i understand how u cant promise me shit cause u hate promises. But please try.. Ill try so hard.. But if you ever feel alone dont forget that i will always be with you, wether im here or im dead, or im a million miles away ill always be here for you…